Dreams, dreams, and more dreams

I have always been one to believe that dreams play an important role in discovering who were might be. Dreams open up doors to the darker, less traveled places in our souls. I believe in a lot of strange things. Over the years I have experienced many strange occurrences that just don't add up till you add in the strange little "new age" (as some refer to it ass, if there is a better way let me know,) link.

I love dreaming, I enjoy the really strange dreams, and even the nightmares that sometimes plague me. Sometimes though there are things that bug me. Dreams that happen over and over or feel too real. I might be crazy, sure, I'll admit to it, but sometimes there are just too weird to just forget. I dream events that happen later, not really solid accounts of those events, but the core of them. Then when the event occurs I'm slapped in the face with the renewed feelings that I had int he dreams of the event. This has happened to me over and over again, from the getting together, breaking up and eventual moving of my last relationship. That was the strangest. I was standing in the bedroom of my new apartment 3 months after moving, with just a bed mattress in the floor and nothing else, when i realized I had dreamed this particular moment with the same feelings I was having then. The dream I had a year before, just 4 months into a wonderful relationship. When I had the dream it really bugged me for a week, I mean, why dream it? The dream pretty much consisted of me standing in an unfamiliar bed room with just a mattress in the floor. The feeling of extreme loneliness and that someone had left me were the main theme of the dream. That's pretty much all I had remembered from that dream. Well, I had to sit down after reliving that dream in reality. Does this seem strange to you? It should, it happens to me and I think it's very strange and weird. Normally I wouldn't tell anyone save my closest friend.

Well, onto the actual point of this post. Some of the reoccurring dreams I have are happier ones. They are dreams of me floating, flying, or controlling wind. For one solid week when I was 17 I went through a progression of dreams where I learned and concentrated on levitating myself off the floor, and eventually controlling it enough that I could fly great distances. These dreams would always wear me out physically. It felt as though I pushed everything I had through the bottom of my feet. After that week of "air training" I have always been able to fly in the dreams, and it felt real. I felt what zero G's was, and what mach 1 might feel like (where everything feels heavy). I did not fly until last year when I went to Hawaii and then to California. Never been in a plane till then and I was 26. But I was excited, The taking off of the plane felt a lot like the dreams, and when the plane hit turbulence, it felt a lot like my dreams again. :-) I ramble though again.

Back to the point. Last year when I discussed trying to find out who I am with my life couch, she suggested that I use my dreams since I seemed to be fairly connected to them. We were trying to figure out where I draw personal power from, so after that I thought about it for days and days. Then one night I dreamed about a very large fire surrounded by darkness so void of anything that you would think the fire was all that existed there. The world beyond the firelight did not exist. I stood in front of this fire for some time before a rather large dark grey wolf stepped out of the fire. I wasn't scared. The wolf's eyes were calming, intelligent and did not strike me as dangerous. When he fully emerged from the fire he sat in front of me. We both pondered each other in silence for what seemed like ages, then I just wasn't there anymore. I had lost my form and merged with the wolf and that is all I could remember from that dream. I didn't think much of the dream since i was dealing with new issues in my relationship that was failing. A week later the dream happened again, almost exactly the way it did the first time. This struck me odd a little, but the stress and pressure of my day to day life was taking a lot of my attention. A third time and I had decided that the wolf must be some form of power that I am drawing from when I discussed it with my life couch. Kinda weird since I strive so hard to not be a lone wolf in real life, I fight the urge and images of being that. but I continually do things that reinforce the lone wolf. This was a little over 8 months ago. I didn't go into researching what a wolf might mean for me, though before the end of my relationship my girlfriend had showed me that I was both a water and an air element in Chinese or Japanese energy signs. I figured I was a water since I tend be love water and am drawn to it madly. Can not keep me out of the ocean if I am within a mile of it. Two days ago my friend was just playing around on the Internet and sent me this link http://www.paulsadowski.com/BirthData.asp . The site takes your birthday and gives you all sorts of interesting and fun stuff to ponder. As with most of these sites I tend to just do and then move on. But when I plugged in my Bday info It came up with some things I already knew, but then somethings that struck me as odd.

The biggest thing what that my Native American zodiac is the wolf. So curiosity reborn in the wolf dream I followed up on the wolf thing a bit. I found all this to be pretty interesting. It reaffirms that I am a water and air person, and has hit on a lot of my qualities. So take it how ever you will, but everyday I grow closer to the conclusion that dreams are more powerful than most realize. In fact I would even be willing to say that you can do almost anything if you use your dreams.And If you don't really believe in any of this nonsense, then just do the birthday thing for fun.

Wolf People

Birth Dates	February 19th - March 20th
Earth Influence	The Blustery Winds time
Influencing Wind	The North wind
Totem	Buffalo
Direction	The North North East Winds
Element	Water with Air
Elemental	Frog (water) Clan
Function	Recovery
Birth & Animal Totem	Wolf
Plant Totem	Plantain
Stone Totem	Jade
Polarity Totem	Brown Bear
Affinity Color	Blue Green
Musical Vibration	F sharp an octave above Salmon
Personality	Compassionate, benevolent, generous, artistic & gentle
Feelings	Deep
Intention	Understanding
Nature	Trusting
Positive Traits	Sympathetic, Adaptable, Impressionable & sensitive
Negative Traits	Impractical, Vague, Timid & indecisive
Sex Drive	Tender
Compatibility's	Woodpecker, Brown Bears & snakes
Conscious Aim	Freedom
Subconscious Desire	Identity
Life Path	Love
Spiritual Alchemy	Yin Predominates
Should Cultivate	Intuition, creativity and Understanding
Should Avoid	Timidity, indolence & impracticality

P.S. I will post some image of the prints I have been working on soon.