Been a while

Well, it has been a while since my last post.

Lets face it, I am at a point in my life were I will have to deal with a mid life crisis soon, and will have to deal with the trials of being single.

This post may be a bit disjointed as I go a long. My mind seems to be stuck on several subjects at the same time and will not let loose enough to focus on one. So shall I speak of all of the subjects at the same time.

I'll evedn order them in a list to hopefully create some order amongst the chaos.

thought number one.

1) I am very lonely, and in my loneliness I have been starting to exclude myself from society, A hermit as you will. This is in fact a result of Amanda and not being able to connect with anyone. It sucks in this town. No one seems to be either on the same level as I, or can understand me very well. No one really has been able to connect.

2) Work, although making a ton of money, has been a little bit of a drag on me since I have been working later and later everynight. I have a feeling this is because of my willingness to take shit from most people. This will stop soon, I am taking steps to insure this.

3)School has been going really well, but I am beginning to feel the strain of life. It is affecting my work and my ability to focus and to come up with some really killer projects.

4)I have been doing some self destructive things. I need to quit. I recognize them and am unable, no, unwilling to stop them. I need to find out why.

5)I have lost focus right now, I am not myself at this moment and am loosing focus on what I should type and am thinking.

I shall finish this later. At a much later time when my schedule allows for more sleep and focus.

Later.